Bruce Devereaux continues to be overwhelmed by generosity
THE other night, after all the kids were in bed, I stood at the kitchen sink doing dishes, and cried.
It's hard to explain why.
Anguish? Relief? Self pity?
Probably a little bit of each of those and a few more I haven't put a name to yet.
What I find is I well up more now than at the beginning of this ordeal.
Not that historically I haven't been known to leak around the eyes when the moment's called for it.
I still can't think for too long about Michael Landon's Highway To Heaven (a television touchstone of the 1980s) without getting emotional.
But it's like when the emotional tap was finally fully turned on the seal was damaged and can't be properly turned off now. And I'm running with it.
Like the other day when I pulled into our local service station down the road and filled up.
"Just on card," I told the bloke, reaching into my pocket.
He waved the suggestion off.
"No, don't worry about that," he said.
"You've got a lot of expenses heading down to Brisbane and back, and the staff here want to help you out with this."
I shook his hand, said thank you, and drove away gobsmacked yet again at the support Tracey and I and the kids have been receiving from people.
Before I'd made it to the set of lights 800m up the road I'd welled up again.
And it felt good. They were happy tears in appreciation of the community I'm a part of.
The funny thing is, for all I'm even more likely to dehydrate than ever I feel more in touch with the world around me and within me and, contradictorily, more in control.
I wouldn't change how I'm feeling emotionally for anything.
Thank you again to everyone for the messages and prayers and positive vibes and offers of support.
Thank you for lighting candles.
Thank you for sending bears and toys and books and Tracey pillows for the kids.
Thank you for putting Keep Fighting Tracey stickers on your cars.
Thank you for collecting images of bird poo.
Thank you for fundraising or participating in the fundraising.
Thank you for carrying me through this journey.
Thank you for caring.